To Honor

In my family, we have held the tradition for as long as I remember of celebrating Memorial Day. I've had many ancestors serve in the military and I have always loved remembering them. Every year, I've gone to take flowers to graves and decorate their headstones.

Today also marks 3 years since Caleb's passing from this life. It seems like yesterday.

I realize that I have become more reserved in what I share and what I don’t on social media. At the start of my grieving process, I was very active on social media and wanted to share more of my life on those platforms.

My process has changed and I consider myself a more private and reserved person now. I like my privacy and prefer to share feelings through this blog and if people have questions of course I will answer them. I also do this for the sake of those who may be triggered by their own traumas and grief and keep my posts respectful towards others.

My love for Caleb is sacred. I will always always always think about him everyday. Who he was, his life, his legacy, his hopes, and aspirations. I am amazed by him and who he was. He was too good and pure and definitely close to God.

In the dictionary, “to honor” means high respect; or great esteem. It can also mean to regard with great respect.

When I first started my journey with Caleb, we instantly connected with music. We both had the same love for and desire to make music, sing, and create.

In the last couple of months, I have felt the urge to transpose some of his music so I can be able play them myself. I feel like I never have the words to say or convey through words how I feel, but with music, I can let it speak for me.

Here is one of Caleb's greatest works. A song that he and I worked on together and a way that I can respect or honor caleb:

Kobe 💜

Love, Marissa

(Song and video is on my Instagram (mj_sleeves)