4

I feel as though on important days to remember or to honor, I am at a loss for words.

I fall short when it comes to expressing my grief publicly, but I hope that doesn’t matter.

As I fail to come up with words on the 4th anniversary of Caleb’s passing, I feel that it can be expressed with music.

A side effect to my grief is numbness, but when I play music on a familiar instrument, I feel like me again.

Grief can hinder the ability to feel inspiration from above or to feel a connection, but I feel most close to Caleb as I play.

So I sat at the piano today for hours.

I remembered the times where we would sit together and harmonize.

I was reminded of his great love for me as evidenced by the songs that he composed for me.

I’m still at a loss of words, but when words fail, music never will.